welcome back! 👋🏼 sorry that i’m not posting so much but i’m a schoolgirl, i’m well-behaved (that means that i learn very much) -as i already told you- and yesterday i had a little hangover -it was a wild night you know. yes, no one cares… BUT! anyways i’m blogging as much as i can and it’s so fun even school and fun together can be very stressful.
well today it’s gonna be another depression post but i don’t want to moan again how poor i am. because i’m definitely not! there are some days you think about the stuff that makes you sad and sometimes you’re happy with what you have. and today is a good sunday! while my friends and me were having a breakfast after a very funny and jolly sleepover with some party incidents, i suddenly realized how happy i should be! i ate my roll with jam and reminded me of the great and funny things that happened the last day. and it was just one day! i’ve had so many days like that and when i’m wallowing in self-pity i never notice the good things. for example my great parents! they help me with everything, their trust to me is endless and i really can laugh and have fun with them! the first thing that comes to my mind when i think of my parents is just love because without them i’d be nothing (i wouldn’t even been born but you know what i mean). my mum is my best friend and my dad is the entertainer in my life! also my friends are the cutest little people on this earth. i have such a great time when i’m with them. i can ask them everything and they are there if i need them.
so this is what makes me happy in this moment. i know some people aren’t that lucky like i am, maybe they don’t have great parents or such good friends they could count on. but i’m so thankful that i have that. i’m thankful that i have a house i can live in that i am safe and that there’s no war but there are human beings out there that can dream of the stuff that i have but they are strong -not everyone i know. so if i’m thinking of my last depression post i can say that i have no rights to say that i’m such a sad and pitiable person because i’m not. anyways i’m sometimes sad and i don’t want to go outside or something but these are my first world problems! that’s just not comparable to other sufferings i know that but in my mind is bordered -and if we all think about it- ourselves are actually the most important to us and we have to fight with our problems and feelings because we can’t just fade ourselves out. i think that’s a fact and i know there are exceptions but that’s just the stuff that comes to my mind right now. and as i already said: my mind is bordered 😶
now thank you for reading this till the end. please tell me what you think about this topic and what are the things that make you happy right now or in general! please stay yourself and thank you if you comment or if you just liked reading my thoughts. i know not everybody thinks the same stuff and maybe someone will read this and will think ‘wtf’ but i’m always confused and i write faster than i’m able to think. this post is just my inner mind and i wanted to share it with you. sorry for mistakes or anything and at the end now just a little poem i found in the world wide web.
~xx lea 💋
by Gloria Sarasin
Running, running, here I go
To catch my tail but I’m so slow
And lagging, dragging, my behind
To try to catch up with my mind.
Tripping, falling on my tongue
That is often too high-strung,
Dropping words I have to eat
And spitting them upon my feet.
Keeping up with things today
Is harder than my words can say
For every time I think I’ve won,
There I fall down on my bun.
My body’s old, my mind is young;
Upon a cloud, my dreams are hung
And so if you should see me cry,
You will know the cloud’s passed by.
Slower, slower, now I go
Like Wisconsin winters in the snow,
So if you want to walk with me,
You’ll have to slow down or carry me.