do i live now? or do i live in the future?
i’m waiting for things to happen, exams to write, friends to meet… i’m waiting for summer when i can go on vacation. then everything starts again. i’m just waiting and working for things that aren’t important. i want to live now. i want to know what i want and what i want to happen, what i want to do. but i don’t.
i’m always looking up on people that have the things i will never get. i’m never happy and confident with me.
the question is why. why can’t i be lucky and happy with the things i have? i’m living in a world i don’t like. i’m dreaming of things that never happen, it’s not real.
i guess i have to find out what i’m for