Long time no see or read… whatever. I’m sorry I’m not an active blogger but sometimes I’m like super duper motivated but most of the time I’m just a lazy potato laying in my bed and sleeping all day. Well, not the best lifestyle if you want to be good at school and want to have a life but what can you do π
Soo I wanted to do write about things you could call story time or something like this. But now I’m really wondering if my life is worth a story time or are the things I’m writing even stories? Well, I will find out soon I guess.
Now I’d see this post more like a personal diary because some things at the moment make me stay awake all night.
First of all my already mentioned laziness. I know I have a lot to do. For school, in general for my parents but I can’t get my butt up and do these things. Why? Am I ill or something? There’s a little bastard inside my brain that won’t let me get up and be productive and do something with my life. I can’t describe the feeling. And when I finally got to my desk, sat down and started learing I can’t stay there longer than one hour. I should really study for school but I can’t. It’s like a phobia that keeps me away from school stuff that I have to do and I start feeling numb and exhausted.
And then my anxiety. Every time someone talked about this anxious feeling you can get when you are in public or even at home I thought wow a lot of people seem to deal with that. And then I realized, well, me too. Because I have a fear of going out. Not with friends or someone like that but I have a huge fear of going out alone. Being by myself in public makes me shy and want to run away from everything. I start walking faster because I don’t want to stay at one spot too long because I don’t want to be seen maybe… I can’t describe the feeling. I never thought about going to a psycologist or something to talk about that but I don’t know, maybe it would help? Because how shall I get independent if I can’t even go to a grocery store to buy the things I need?
Maybe if you’re a little experienced in that topic and can give some advice, please leave me a comment. I’m really interested in finding out about this or if it even is anxiety what I have here. But I guess I can only find that out if I’m going to talk to a specialist which I don’t really want to be honest…
But enough of that now. If you want to say something about anxiety or laziness and feeling numb please leave a comment. Have a nice day xx
Sorry, I haven’t really experienced anxiety so I can’t offer much advice there but I do think what you described sounds like anxiety of some sort. I hope you’ll be able to figure out all this soon. π xx
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You lucky one π I hope it stays like this for you xx
Well, I hope too maybe it also disappears form time to time
xoxo
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Please blog more! I really miss your posts
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I really try to π Thank you!
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How are you? It’s been a long time since we chat like last year when I first started my blog
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I’m quite good right now π you too?
Yes a long time ago… I also realized I have my blog for one year already
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Happy blog anniversary! I’m good. Quite busy because of a project I’m running here in WordPress! π
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You too π
Well good luck with your project π
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Thanks!
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I feel exactly the same with classes and homework and stuff. I should get up and do them but I can’t. When I was in school I had a lot of anxiety going out too. I then discovered the art of listening to music while being on the street which in my country is rather dangerous because there are a lot of robberies. However up to this day I can’t go out without listening to music. I also walk really fast. I mean if I’m with friends it’s fine but when I’m alone I just can’t. It calms me down a lot and keeps me in my own world. I still pay attention in the streets obviously .
If you feel like you can’t handle it and you might need help then I do suggest a therapist. It’s always easier when you talk to someone who is interested in helping you π
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Oh yes! Walking while listening to music is really like being in a different world. I enjoy that too. I guess we both understand each other with our fears and ‘problems’ π
Thank you for your comment!!
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yes, walking with music is a good idea. I am not sure it is really anxiety but rather insecurity. I was the same at your age, and then I went travelling around the world all by myself and completely got over that!! You need to push yourself to get out there. I am still shy in certain situations, but much better than I used to be.
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Wow that is so brave!! I’d totally do that but i think i wouldn’t be strong enough to do it totally alone π
Thank you for the comment xo
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I missed your posts so much!!! πππ Anyways, I think you feel “burned out” about your school stuff… The monotomy & boredom can really get to you. I also experienced that in my college years, but what I did is that I desperately find a solution to keep my light burning… Which is aiming for a Latin Honor π It worked for me & now I’m just 10 days away from my diploma & award βΊ Or maybe you can try to get involve more in your school community π In being alone in public, I can also feel you! Sometimes I get awkward when I go to the mall or supermarket alone… And worse, I end up doing my awkward walk ππ What I do is I pick up my earphones & just walk to the beat and I can feel myself not being awkward walking alone π Hope my sharing can help ya βΊ
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Thank youu! So nice to hear that π
That’s really a good idea… I only have one year to go but I should really try to get involved into school stuff π
haha walking to the beat sounds good :’D I’ going to make a playlist and try it π
Thank you a lot! β€
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No prob π Now conquer your school halls with your playlist/OST of your school life hihi
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Hi, Thanks for stopping by and according to me music changes your mind or wipes away loneliness. Try something peppy, it works.
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Yes I know:)
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What really helped me get over laziness when it came to studying was instead of looking at homework as something you will being doing all year or all month , I would look at it as a daily challenge to improve as much as I could. Seeing Studying as working towards a letter grade at the end of the class was daunting. breaking it down into a daily challenge was easier. Mine was “i am going to do the homework I was assigned and look over the days notes every day after class” Just doing that earned me high marks. May not work for everyone but hopefully helps a tiny bit. you got this
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I think that’s a really good trick because if you will be doing that all year you don’t have to study that much when it comes to the exams.
I now also tried to start earlier to study before an exam because then I don’t have that much pressure and it is easier for me to remember the things.
Thank you loads for your comment you got this too for sure xx
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